Sorry for anyone reading my last post I know it was darmatic and out there but, I needed to get it off my cheast. I am the one who carry's all the burdon in this house and sometimes the pop bottle in side my head overflows and I need to release the pressure.
Since moving to Alberta, I am not sure that I really have any true friends, I have a one that I talk to daily, but sometimes it seems our conversations are so once sided that once I start talking about anything that happens to me I hear well, I have to go now talk to you later.
This week is moving week and I am exsatic, except for the fact that we cannot pay for the first months rent yet and I am so nervous that we will end up living out of our van for 3 weeks until we can pay it, its not even funny. Anyways no more debbie downer talk. So I posted Saturday and Sunday my dayhome lady paid and we went to the grocery store and I always thought that it was eaiser with older kids, turns out I maybe wrong. There were tears and yelling and running in the isle I just wanted to put a leash on them, Would that really be that bad of me to put leashes on an 9 year old and a 6 year old? When I was little my mom told me she had a leather harness for me and she used to put it on me and tie me in the front yard so I could play, luckly I don't have photographic proof of that. I want to start my own little at home business, I have tried many of the MLM businesses and I guess I just dont have the knack to scam other people into crap, just so I can make a quick buck.
So here is my question, Is it apporpriate to make an Amazon wish list and share it with people in order to get what you want? I had another friend do this and one of her friends got her some of the expensive but cool shit off of her wish list. I personally thinks its a little overboard, but hey I also could always try doing a crowd funding page to get everything I need. What if I set up one of those pages where you donate so much and I will make you a custom shirt or something? is that inapproprate as well?
So here is my idea, start small with a little silhouette curio machine and start cutting heat presses and designs for silk screening. Start doing a small custom print shop and head to all the local farmers markets, take the horse related ones to horse events with me. I need to think of something so that I can stay at home with my kids. I know my seperation anxiety from them is getting worse and I am not sure why. Most days when they are home with me all day I want to ship them to school just so I can catch a break. Does that make me a bad mom? I don't think so I am sure there are plenty of you mom's out there, that are like me and just need a break.
I started a small challange with my sister and niece, a little weight loss challange. Whoever losses the most weight in 90 days gets to choose where we all go together on a vacation, So I warned my husband to look out because that means that he will have to take vacation time to watch our kids. He say's he will just go home to see his family as it has been a while for him since he has seen them.
Well I am off to pack again, and hopefully finish the entire house today so that we can just throw it all into the van and off we go.
Tuesday 27 June 2017
Saturday 24 June 2017
Nothing like finally hitting rock bottom
Hey everyone who reads or even just looks at my posts, I know I promised I would be doing one daily but life seriously this week has got in the way. I am not the greatest person in the world and even thought I may sound sometimes like I have my life together I am far from it. This last few months are here to prove it.
My husband has had 8 jobs in 2 years, yes you have read that right. He has bounced from job to job to job. I have major seperation anxity when it comes to my children and I will be the first to admit it, so for the last 9 years I have spent at home as a stay-at-home mom. So needless to say me going back to the workforce now is uesless, as I really have NO employability skills.
The last month has been the worst off for us, I have hit rock bottom I cannot go any further down then I have right now. As I sit here writing this my kids are downstairs eating the last package of 12 hotdogs, this morning they fought the feeling of hunger till 1130, Just so they could have popcorn for lunch. Yupp right now I sit here writting this so broke that I cannot feed my children this week. I cannot afford the gas in my van to get my husband to work for the week. I have exhausted all my resources, I have borrowed from EVERYONE I know to keep my family alive for the last 4 months that my husband's work slowed down.
June 5th we got news that we could rent a home that would help our daughter extreamly well with her mental health and healing all those feelings she is having. So I have been super excited, here is the kicker, WE DONT HAVE THE MONEY. We can pay the rent, monthly but we cannot pay the $3200 required up front. As it stands right now, My husbands car is shut down for non-payment, my van is next, we have an eviction notice on our current home for July 4th. So either way as of the 4th of July, I will be homeless.
Today though Today was the worst, I have never been so scared to not feed my family. The worst part about this whole situation is that I am here thanks to everyone else. I run a dayhome, which was very sucessful until this year, this year families that always paid on time needed sometime to pay there montly fees, and yes I am a bit of a push over and allowed it once. Which has now carried on to a year, I currently sit here with the fear of starving kids this week and have $500 owed to me and a family whom makes good money not paying it to me.
I am not looking for sympathy from anyone reading this, as I said I will post this as you are my friend and I need to vent and if you are following me you will get to see all my highs and lows and unfortuatly this is my low. I want to say I vow to change my life around, start making budgets and making sure this NEVER happens again. Realistically I have NO idea where to start!! If anybody out there is truly reading this has any suggestions please please leave them.
I... to be truthful was hoping to either become a youtube sensation or make money blogging, truthfully that is not going to happen. I do however have a good idea for a little side job to make us some money, but again it will cost me an intial investment of $500 and NO its not a get rich quick business. It's a legit idea that I think may be a good one, I need to buy a shilouette curio and I am hoping to start a t-shirt business. Well my kids have eaten for the 3rd time today and I am glad. I on the other hand am starving, but I am better to starve then my children. If you have made it this far thank you for listening, if not thats ok for me too. I just needed to vent and let it out.
Here's to hoping that by some stroke of luck that I will find some money and be OK! chances are that I will not, and that really sucks.
My husband has had 8 jobs in 2 years, yes you have read that right. He has bounced from job to job to job. I have major seperation anxity when it comes to my children and I will be the first to admit it, so for the last 9 years I have spent at home as a stay-at-home mom. So needless to say me going back to the workforce now is uesless, as I really have NO employability skills.
The last month has been the worst off for us, I have hit rock bottom I cannot go any further down then I have right now. As I sit here writing this my kids are downstairs eating the last package of 12 hotdogs, this morning they fought the feeling of hunger till 1130, Just so they could have popcorn for lunch. Yupp right now I sit here writting this so broke that I cannot feed my children this week. I cannot afford the gas in my van to get my husband to work for the week. I have exhausted all my resources, I have borrowed from EVERYONE I know to keep my family alive for the last 4 months that my husband's work slowed down.
June 5th we got news that we could rent a home that would help our daughter extreamly well with her mental health and healing all those feelings she is having. So I have been super excited, here is the kicker, WE DONT HAVE THE MONEY. We can pay the rent, monthly but we cannot pay the $3200 required up front. As it stands right now, My husbands car is shut down for non-payment, my van is next, we have an eviction notice on our current home for July 4th. So either way as of the 4th of July, I will be homeless.
Today though Today was the worst, I have never been so scared to not feed my family. The worst part about this whole situation is that I am here thanks to everyone else. I run a dayhome, which was very sucessful until this year, this year families that always paid on time needed sometime to pay there montly fees, and yes I am a bit of a push over and allowed it once. Which has now carried on to a year, I currently sit here with the fear of starving kids this week and have $500 owed to me and a family whom makes good money not paying it to me.
I am not looking for sympathy from anyone reading this, as I said I will post this as you are my friend and I need to vent and if you are following me you will get to see all my highs and lows and unfortuatly this is my low. I want to say I vow to change my life around, start making budgets and making sure this NEVER happens again. Realistically I have NO idea where to start!! If anybody out there is truly reading this has any suggestions please please leave them.
I... to be truthful was hoping to either become a youtube sensation or make money blogging, truthfully that is not going to happen. I do however have a good idea for a little side job to make us some money, but again it will cost me an intial investment of $500 and NO its not a get rich quick business. It's a legit idea that I think may be a good one, I need to buy a shilouette curio and I am hoping to start a t-shirt business. Well my kids have eaten for the 3rd time today and I am glad. I on the other hand am starving, but I am better to starve then my children. If you have made it this far thank you for listening, if not thats ok for me too. I just needed to vent and let it out.
Here's to hoping that by some stroke of luck that I will find some money and be OK! chances are that I will not, and that really sucks.
Monday 19 June 2017
Opps it was a busy weekend!
So again life gets in the way, We live in Alberta where there has been alot of economy turn down. We are originally from Ontario, until 3 years ago when we decided to make the big Journey to Alberta.
My husband works as a hydro-vac swamper and with this job comes really good times and really hard times. This year was his first year of truly working as a full time swamper. He had done it prior but always seemed to find something that worked a bit better and he didn't have to be outdoors all the time. So this year during the winter he was making good money, and like many families prior to this we have always lived paycheck to paycheck with no savings. He had finally found a good job and was making decent cash, that we were actually considering things like family trips and having a savings account. Well then spring break up came which was only suppose to last 2-3 weeks Max. That was mid April, by Mid May he still hadn't worked a single day and things were starting to get dicey, so he applied to another company whom said o yes we have tonnes of work coming up. Turns out they were just as slow, now we are into mid June and my husband hasn't work a consecutive week yet. So needless to say despite all my best efforts on friday, our power was disconnected. Lucky that we had been paid and got it paid right away and now we are good again. I have never been so far behind in my entire life that, I am not going to start researching how to money save even more then what we are.
Anyways back to my weekend. So Saturday was cleaning day and if your like me you dread this day always, I cleaned and made my daughter a new Gymkhana shirt, you will see it later and how it went cause, so far I can do it up on her neck but not over her belly ( opps) I am a self taught sewer (thanks to Youtube) so I learn as I go and every-time I am unsure of a stitch or what it is asking I head over and look for a video to describe how to do it. At about noon we found out that right across the raod from us at the Co-Op gas station they were doing a little car show. There were bouncy castles, face painting and giveaways. We ran over to that and spent a good few hours there. I then decided that I would take my so in the store for a FurReal Milk shake, well that was a bad idea. I forgot that my husband did not link the savings account to my debit card, I frantically called him at work and he was on standby so he called the bank to get it to work. Still nothing 20 minutes later and half a milk shake drank, I came home and told them at the store I just had to get my other card. That card I needed was in my wallet, which was in the van, that my husband had at work. To top it all off my phone was dead so I couldn't even call my husband. I sent him a message on Facebook. It basically said, when you get home you will have to call around and find the kids as I am going to be arrested for stealing, His message back was LOL !!!! LOL are you kidding me I am in tears here, this is not an LOL moment. A few minutes later he messaged me back and said I called the store and will stop and pay on my way by after work. Whew, Thank god I was so mortified, that I was irrationally thinking I was going to jail!!! When my husband finally got home and Saturday it was so late that we didn't do anything at all. We watched a movie as he still laughed at me about my over exaggeration for the whole situation
Sunday, was Father's day and our 6 year anniversary ( even thought there were times I didn't think we would make it, I still love that big mammoth). Well we spent the entire day with my daughter at Gymkhana and let me say that I am one proud mama at this point. I am going to figure out how to post two video's one of her very first Gymkhana and one of yesterday and the transformation is truly AMAZING!! Nick didn't complain so much about being there this time and Ryland has found a love for helping set up an run the flag event (it could be because he gets something free from the canteen afterwards) After Gymkhana we came right home, dropped the dog off and made our way back to Wal-Mart for something for supper. As we went in we went the wrong direction first, which you would think after 9 years of knowing DO NOT GO BY THE TOYS!! I solomly wandered by the toys. Now I swore I would not get my kids a fidget spinner, I think they are great for there original intended use. As a toy not so much, well guess what this no good for nothing mother did!!! gave in and bought each child a fidget spinner, One which lights up. I feel like yupp now my kids know that I am yet again a push over and if they complain and moan long enough Mom will soon give in. I try, I really do try my hardest to be there friend as well as mom. I am failing horribly. Well we got our anniversary supper Wal-Mart had on a pretty sweet deal on steaks. Two huge stakes for $16.00, We also had corn on the cob and baked potato's. My kids because this Mom, didn't want to deal with the I don't like that speech gave in last night and they got McDonald's.
Here I thought finally it is 10 at night I am putting my kids to bed, maybe me and my husband can have some alone time.... NOPE A has now came into my room a total of 10 times, and yes I counted. Let me remind you that she is 9, she knows better and does not need to act like a 2 year old, Mom can I just sleep on my brother's floor I am scared. Scared of what? The Dark.... ARE YOU EVER LOVING KIDDING ME!!!! It's Alberta, its 10 at night ... ITS STILL DAYLIGHT!!!! GO TO BED!! Just as that "quiet time" fun begins again, the door creeks open, A-Mom I still cant sleep. By this time I am fuming. FINE A whatever go do whatever you need to do to go to sleep. I don't care at this point go watch T.V. Mom and Dad are tired as it is now 11:30!!! by now all "quiet time" fun and mood has been lost 😒. Nick heads downstairs for a drink and low and behold, A has gone into R's room and woke him up because she was afraid to be alone downstairs, and they are both watching T.V. They were both told that Daddy needed to leave for work at 6 and they would be getting up with him.
This morning I had two of the most hateful children to ship off to school, and as they climbed on the bus and I waved good-bye all I could think was, Sorry teachers, but you need at least one more bad day before schools out. So now I have got you all caught up to my Monday. I will post tonight what my day was like.
I keep seeing that a few people are looking at my blogs now and then, I would love to hear from you!!! leave me a comment even if its a simple Hello!!
The Crazy, giving in , push over, Poor .... MAMA Blogger Sue
Her very first gymkhana
My husband works as a hydro-vac swamper and with this job comes really good times and really hard times. This year was his first year of truly working as a full time swamper. He had done it prior but always seemed to find something that worked a bit better and he didn't have to be outdoors all the time. So this year during the winter he was making good money, and like many families prior to this we have always lived paycheck to paycheck with no savings. He had finally found a good job and was making decent cash, that we were actually considering things like family trips and having a savings account. Well then spring break up came which was only suppose to last 2-3 weeks Max. That was mid April, by Mid May he still hadn't worked a single day and things were starting to get dicey, so he applied to another company whom said o yes we have tonnes of work coming up. Turns out they were just as slow, now we are into mid June and my husband hasn't work a consecutive week yet. So needless to say despite all my best efforts on friday, our power was disconnected. Lucky that we had been paid and got it paid right away and now we are good again. I have never been so far behind in my entire life that, I am not going to start researching how to money save even more then what we are.
Anyways back to my weekend. So Saturday was cleaning day and if your like me you dread this day always, I cleaned and made my daughter a new Gymkhana shirt, you will see it later and how it went cause, so far I can do it up on her neck but not over her belly ( opps) I am a self taught sewer (thanks to Youtube) so I learn as I go and every-time I am unsure of a stitch or what it is asking I head over and look for a video to describe how to do it. At about noon we found out that right across the raod from us at the Co-Op gas station they were doing a little car show. There were bouncy castles, face painting and giveaways. We ran over to that and spent a good few hours there. I then decided that I would take my so in the store for a FurReal Milk shake, well that was a bad idea. I forgot that my husband did not link the savings account to my debit card, I frantically called him at work and he was on standby so he called the bank to get it to work. Still nothing 20 minutes later and half a milk shake drank, I came home and told them at the store I just had to get my other card. That card I needed was in my wallet, which was in the van, that my husband had at work. To top it all off my phone was dead so I couldn't even call my husband. I sent him a message on Facebook. It basically said, when you get home you will have to call around and find the kids as I am going to be arrested for stealing, His message back was LOL !!!! LOL are you kidding me I am in tears here, this is not an LOL moment. A few minutes later he messaged me back and said I called the store and will stop and pay on my way by after work. Whew, Thank god I was so mortified, that I was irrationally thinking I was going to jail!!! When my husband finally got home and Saturday it was so late that we didn't do anything at all. We watched a movie as he still laughed at me about my over exaggeration for the whole situation
Sunday, was Father's day and our 6 year anniversary ( even thought there were times I didn't think we would make it, I still love that big mammoth). Well we spent the entire day with my daughter at Gymkhana and let me say that I am one proud mama at this point. I am going to figure out how to post two video's one of her very first Gymkhana and one of yesterday and the transformation is truly AMAZING!! Nick didn't complain so much about being there this time and Ryland has found a love for helping set up an run the flag event (it could be because he gets something free from the canteen afterwards) After Gymkhana we came right home, dropped the dog off and made our way back to Wal-Mart for something for supper. As we went in we went the wrong direction first, which you would think after 9 years of knowing DO NOT GO BY THE TOYS!! I solomly wandered by the toys. Now I swore I would not get my kids a fidget spinner, I think they are great for there original intended use. As a toy not so much, well guess what this no good for nothing mother did!!! gave in and bought each child a fidget spinner, One which lights up. I feel like yupp now my kids know that I am yet again a push over and if they complain and moan long enough Mom will soon give in. I try, I really do try my hardest to be there friend as well as mom. I am failing horribly. Well we got our anniversary supper Wal-Mart had on a pretty sweet deal on steaks. Two huge stakes for $16.00, We also had corn on the cob and baked potato's. My kids because this Mom, didn't want to deal with the I don't like that speech gave in last night and they got McDonald's.
Here I thought finally it is 10 at night I am putting my kids to bed, maybe me and my husband can have some alone time.... NOPE A has now came into my room a total of 10 times, and yes I counted. Let me remind you that she is 9, she knows better and does not need to act like a 2 year old, Mom can I just sleep on my brother's floor I am scared. Scared of what? The Dark.... ARE YOU EVER LOVING KIDDING ME!!!! It's Alberta, its 10 at night ... ITS STILL DAYLIGHT!!!! GO TO BED!! Just as that "quiet time" fun begins again, the door creeks open, A-Mom I still cant sleep. By this time I am fuming. FINE A whatever go do whatever you need to do to go to sleep. I don't care at this point go watch T.V. Mom and Dad are tired as it is now 11:30!!! by now all "quiet time" fun and mood has been lost 😒. Nick heads downstairs for a drink and low and behold, A has gone into R's room and woke him up because she was afraid to be alone downstairs, and they are both watching T.V. They were both told that Daddy needed to leave for work at 6 and they would be getting up with him.
This morning I had two of the most hateful children to ship off to school, and as they climbed on the bus and I waved good-bye all I could think was, Sorry teachers, but you need at least one more bad day before schools out. So now I have got you all caught up to my Monday. I will post tonight what my day was like.
I keep seeing that a few people are looking at my blogs now and then, I would love to hear from you!!! leave me a comment even if its a simple Hello!!
The Crazy, giving in , push over, Poor .... MAMA Blogger Sue
This is the last Gymkhana
Her very first gymkhana
Friday 16 June 2017
A bit of what I have been up to.
So last night was uneventful, as such is most of your days too. After running my dayhome all day, I made my kids supper, after they had a pudding, bear paw, some leftover popcorn from there lunch. I had to fight with them to eat chicken and potato's. After supper they both asked if for dessert they could have popcorn, ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME!!! My response was NO, you can have more chicken.
After that fight it was now time for a bath and/or shower, and its like pulling teeth. I remember at 9 my mother complaining about me using to much hot water and leaving some for the fish. My 9 year old will go a week without showering or when asked to shower will jump in for minutes, let the water run over her, no soap, no shampoo 😨 . Please tell me how to explain to a 9 year old ( very emotional) that she stinks, cause if I say it she will loose her shit on me and the world will come to an end.
This brings me to the story of my 9 years life for the last 2 years and how when I say emotional and what we do may seem like we are walking on egg shells around here will help you to make sense why.
If you remember in my first blog I mentioned she loved horses, when we moved to Alberta in 2014, I left behind my two horses and I vowed that we would not get into horses again. Well needless to say that April we were back into horses and taking English riding lessons at a local barn. While she was taking lessons everything was fine and dandy. While we were taking lessons, low and behold her dream pony arrived for reconditioning and we were suddenly interested. After purchasing Gordie, things took a change. First Alexis fell off and went 3 weeks not being allowed to ride him, everyone around the barn said yes he is a fast pony and loved his jumping job and if you were not seasoned you will eat dirty.
Alexis became very fearful of her pony and falling again, while she started lessons again, her fear ate away at her and she refused to canter on him and was kicked out of multiple lessons and made to feel as she was incompetent. I can say that I may have had a part in some of this as I just didn't understand how she went from this fearless cowgirl to a very timid rider, whom looked like she had never done this before.
Finally after 3 long months of not cantering, she was back, she was flying around the arena with ease. I had taken on doing barn chores in order to cut costs and allow her to follow her dreams. So I wasn't at lessons as much as I wanted to be because the horses were on a scheduled and it needed to be done in that time frame. She would come in with a sad look in her face and sheer disappointment, telling me she was no good and that she got kicked out of yet again another lesson, That I should mention I paid full price for. Finally I said enough is enough and I went and watched a few lesson's, I knew the instructor was being a bit tough on her but it was also sort of making her a better rider. Also in this time we learned about her Kyphosis and she got her back brace, which made a difference in her being told to sit up straight and us understanding that she was doing her best. The high expectations seemed to be lowered ALOT!!
Skip forward, of more belittling, We went into the parade and we knew her pony was going to be a dink so we thought for sure we would be put into the middle of a group of horses whom were naturals at this whole parade thing, nope we were added to the end. Thank goodness my husband was there to help because at one point a street sweeper went by us and he lost his shit, it took two of us to hold on to him as my daughter sat on top of him. The instructor rode over to Alexis and told her it was her fault she wasn't controlling him. We decided at that moment to cut back on the lessons and take a step out. Another huge jump and a breaking point, In February of 2016, my daughter was doing a jumping lesson with 6 other kids, ALL the kids were knocking the rail, Aleixs rides up knocks the rail and is screamed at by her coach to get off and pick it up NOW!! and as she is picking it up she is being nit picked on. Next thing this little bitch ( pardon my language) does is pulls all 5 other kids in and says watch Alexis, as Alexis crosses the jump she yells WRONG DO IT AGAIN, over and over and over again. That night we went home wrote our notice and that weekend we moved the horse. We went to another barn that was a great place, but very new and she had no friends there.
In April of 2017, my daughter and I had a regular mother daughter fight about putting cloths away which turned into the most devastating day of my life this far. My 9 year old curled up under her pillows and blankets and cried and cried hard!. I went to her and apologized, she said "its ok Mommy, I understand that I should not be alive anymore, and I would just like to die" I was taken back and I started asking questions getting to the bottom of this problem. There were issues at school, my yelling at her, but it all boiled down to this instructor that had made her feel worthless. I immediately contacted the school, they then informed me that she has no friends at school and what her perception of what is happening at school is not what was actually happening. I took the weekend to get my poop in a group and made the decision that she would be home-schooled. I also took it upon my self to find a new place for the horse.
This is where her life is slowly changing, we moved to just someone's house, who had a child her age. Alexis loved it there.. She introduced us to the Golden Spur Gymkhana club, I will say we were really reluctant to go because we didn't want to get into a situation where there were clicks and she was going to be judged again. This club all its members, have welcomed Alexis with open arms and treated her like family. She has gained her confidence back and now rides her horse like she stole him. We have since then recently got a rental in which the barn is on the property and the horse will be moved there. I cannot wait for our adventures to continue and to bring you along for the ride.
I just want to say to all you mom out there, Stay strong, you know what is right for your kids. Should you find yourself in a situation like I was remember don't be ashamed, reach out... reach out to your local moms, friends, school, help lines. Don't let you child's feelings go unnoticed.
Thursday 15 June 2017
Just A little about me
Well, I guess it's time I take my friends advice and jump on this blogging band wagon. In this post I will tell you a little about me and catch you up on my life this far which has been a whirl wind of events that I will not be able to share all in one post. My life events has shaped me to become whom I am today.
I am a wife, and mommy to a wonderful husband who, try's his bests to encourage and allow me to follow my dreams. Even thought its been a long 5 years ( 6 this Sunday) with him and struggling to find full time enjoyable work, that he will stay at. I still love him to death. He has a passion for Hunting and fishing and love for his family that is undeniable.
I also have two children whom are A(9) a girl and R(6) a boy. I love my children dearly, or so I have to remind my self daily, Between the fighting and bickering. In all reality I really do love my children they are my entire world and my world definitely revolves around them. A she was such a good baby I was truly spoiled with her. When she was 3 the Dr noticed a curve in her spine and we went through months, years of x-rays and watching this spine curve and trying to figure out what type of scoliosis she had. It was not until we moved to Alberta that we figured out it was not scolosis, but Kyphosis ( hunchback) she now wears a brace, 22 of 24 hours a day 7 days a week. This has taken its toll on her and caused her a lot of grief. At a tender age of 9 she informed me she didn't want to live anymore, so now we are on this journey with her. More to come on that in future posts as well.
R is a handful. I had pre-term labour with him at 30 weeks and spent 3 weeks in the hospital trying to control the contractions, I was given the steroid shot and also given a tour of the NICU unit in preparation of A arriving early. Thankfully her arrived at full-term, he was colicky for the first 3 months of his life. He slept in a swing that was turned on to full speed, just so we could get 2 hours of rest between feedings. Now he is outgoing and charismatic. He is loud and overwhelmed easy, He cannot stand his nails being clipped or his hair touched. I know he needs more testing to figure out what is going on with him and I will bring you along with me on that journey as well. Between horses and hockey this mom goes non stop. I promise that there will be lots of blogs on how I did it. Last year I did weekend chores for the barn my daughters horse was boarded at, as well as being an assistant coach for my sons hockey team!! Yes I was busy.
I also have a horse ( my daughters horse) who is a bit of a dink to deal with on a regular basis, but we would not trade him in for the world as he has made A who she is today. We also have a dog a German Shorthair Pointer. Yes she has her very own blog as well, She wants to make sure that the kids remember all the great adventures that she has had with them.
So now like a typical mother, I have put my entire family before my self and you know about them, here is a little bit about me. I am approaching 30 this year and wondering where my time has gone. I do not have any great college stories, or all night drinking parties. I was a fairly conservative kid, as a teenager I had my own horses and they consumed my entire life. I never had spare time to go out and party like many of the teenagers my age did. I graduated High-school and was accepted to a local college in the Electrical engineer program, I took so much flack from my teachers in the first 2 weeks that I quit that program and took Early Childhood Education, I completed the first semester and low and behold A arrived. Her dad found out and cheated on me the next week and that was the end of a 5 year relationship. I got a job until she was born, after she was born I deiced to be a single stay at home mom.That did not go so well, to say the least. I have been on welfare and broke beyond belief, you name it I have been there. I met my husband when A was just 1.5 years old. After a short period of dating we were engaged, I attempted to go back to school and take my Early Childhood Education over and made it through an entire year this time before getting pregnant with R. My hobbies are sewing, crocheting, I love horses as much as A, honestly though as a mother my hobbies are my kids and husband :)
My goals with this blog is to update you every evening on what happened throughout my day, I know that there are many of you out there that can relate to me. Please, I want you to comment and ask questions, give advice, Let me know if you like my blog. I will talk to you like I talk to a friend and I will not censor or sugar coat it. I look forward in getting to know each and everyone of you
Your Friend, Mom of 2 Sue
I am a wife, and mommy to a wonderful husband who, try's his bests to encourage and allow me to follow my dreams. Even thought its been a long 5 years ( 6 this Sunday) with him and struggling to find full time enjoyable work, that he will stay at. I still love him to death. He has a passion for Hunting and fishing and love for his family that is undeniable.
I also have two children whom are A(9) a girl and R(6) a boy. I love my children dearly, or so I have to remind my self daily, Between the fighting and bickering. In all reality I really do love my children they are my entire world and my world definitely revolves around them. A she was such a good baby I was truly spoiled with her. When she was 3 the Dr noticed a curve in her spine and we went through months, years of x-rays and watching this spine curve and trying to figure out what type of scoliosis she had. It was not until we moved to Alberta that we figured out it was not scolosis, but Kyphosis ( hunchback) she now wears a brace, 22 of 24 hours a day 7 days a week. This has taken its toll on her and caused her a lot of grief. At a tender age of 9 she informed me she didn't want to live anymore, so now we are on this journey with her. More to come on that in future posts as well.
R is a handful. I had pre-term labour with him at 30 weeks and spent 3 weeks in the hospital trying to control the contractions, I was given the steroid shot and also given a tour of the NICU unit in preparation of A arriving early. Thankfully her arrived at full-term, he was colicky for the first 3 months of his life. He slept in a swing that was turned on to full speed, just so we could get 2 hours of rest between feedings. Now he is outgoing and charismatic. He is loud and overwhelmed easy, He cannot stand his nails being clipped or his hair touched. I know he needs more testing to figure out what is going on with him and I will bring you along with me on that journey as well. Between horses and hockey this mom goes non stop. I promise that there will be lots of blogs on how I did it. Last year I did weekend chores for the barn my daughters horse was boarded at, as well as being an assistant coach for my sons hockey team!! Yes I was busy.
I also have a horse ( my daughters horse) who is a bit of a dink to deal with on a regular basis, but we would not trade him in for the world as he has made A who she is today. We also have a dog a German Shorthair Pointer. Yes she has her very own blog as well, She wants to make sure that the kids remember all the great adventures that she has had with them.
So now like a typical mother, I have put my entire family before my self and you know about them, here is a little bit about me. I am approaching 30 this year and wondering where my time has gone. I do not have any great college stories, or all night drinking parties. I was a fairly conservative kid, as a teenager I had my own horses and they consumed my entire life. I never had spare time to go out and party like many of the teenagers my age did. I graduated High-school and was accepted to a local college in the Electrical engineer program, I took so much flack from my teachers in the first 2 weeks that I quit that program and took Early Childhood Education, I completed the first semester and low and behold A arrived. Her dad found out and cheated on me the next week and that was the end of a 5 year relationship. I got a job until she was born, after she was born I deiced to be a single stay at home mom.That did not go so well, to say the least. I have been on welfare and broke beyond belief, you name it I have been there. I met my husband when A was just 1.5 years old. After a short period of dating we were engaged, I attempted to go back to school and take my Early Childhood Education over and made it through an entire year this time before getting pregnant with R. My hobbies are sewing, crocheting, I love horses as much as A, honestly though as a mother my hobbies are my kids and husband :)
My goals with this blog is to update you every evening on what happened throughout my day, I know that there are many of you out there that can relate to me. Please, I want you to comment and ask questions, give advice, Let me know if you like my blog. I will talk to you like I talk to a friend and I will not censor or sugar coat it. I look forward in getting to know each and everyone of you
Your Friend, Mom of 2 Sue
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